Mental torture from husband and in-laws. Can someone help?

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I am an indian, husband is also an indian. we have 2 children, 4 yr and 9 weeks old. Ours was an arranged marriage. We are married since 5 yrs. Since then I have suffered lot of mental turture from him and his family. He is very mean ,selfish, saddist. It is continuing even today. He goes to India on vacation every year and drags me there with him and illtreats me. After that our life is miserable for the whole yr untill next vacation. I have no freedom to anything. He says he likes to take care of me provided I shut my mouth and cook for him and take care of the children all my life. His parents are very important to him. He has used the words \" Divorce\" , \" leave the house\" several times. My parents are very supportive. I seek their help if I cannot stand the tension and take decisions myself. Then the situation becomes cool for some days. My parents cannot be there all my life.
Current issue is he wants to take away my 4 yrs old with him for 5 weeks vacation (he is going on sunday). I cannot stay away from my daughter. I have to survive alone with 2 kids during this christam time, which is okay for me. His parents are very very very bad people. They plan things togather and I have no idea of anything going over my head. His parens and my parents are in India.
I have given birth twice but never ever enjoyed a single day of marriage untill today. I am not sure what could happen to me tomorrow.
I cannot leave this man, because I need a father for my kids. He is rich and he can take care of them. That\'s the only reason. I cannot survive in US with 2 small children all by myself. If I talk about leaving him, he is very happy, he will take the kids and kick me out. I am suffocating.
Worse of all, In-laws are planning to come and stay with us here in NJ for 6 months. I have to cook and clean and do the entire work for them from 5 AM till 11 Pm , along with taking care of my own kids. I might die in 2 days. They shout and speak bad words. I hate my daughter listening to it. My husband is against sending my 4 yr old daughter to pre-school. I am pretty sure something very bad would happen when my in-laws come to stay with us. They want their son and his kids. I am a slave for them. 6 months is a long time to suffer. Help!!!
I am really fed up of my life, but I cannot escape. I am from a reputed family in India and divorce and walking away from husband is considered bad in our culture. (I tried commiting suicide make times, but I am not brave at all.)

Are there any social organisation or domestic violence support group ( I live in NJ) whom I can call and ask for help in care needed? Anybody who has gone through this pls advice.
Thanks for valauable advice and support. I am getting strong day by day but my children are my weakness and he use them as a tool to defend. I am legel resident and can look for jobs in a years time. That is my plan and he wants me to work too. I am sure he wont let me save a sigle doller for myself, but still I will have a job someday. I am educated. I am strengtenging my mind and telling my self each day \" I can do it!\"....Okay, now I know some numbers to call if something really bad happens ( like physical or mental abuse).
Thanks for valauable advice and support. I am getting strong day by day but my children are my weakness and he use them as a tool to defend. I am legel resident and can look for jobs in a years time. That is my plan and he wants me to work too. I am sure he wont let me save a sigle doller for myself, but still I will have a job someday. I am educated. I am strengtenging my mind and telling my self each day \" I can do it!\"....Okay, now I know some numbers to call if something really bad happens ( like physical or mental abuse).
Thanks for valauable advice and support. I am getting strong day by day but my children are my weakness and he use them as a tool to defend. I am legel resident and can look for jobs in a years time. That is my plan and he wants me to work too. I am sure he wont let me save a sigle doller for myself, but still I will have a job someday. I am educated. I am strengtenging my mind and telling my self each day \" I can do it!\"....Okay, now I know some numbers to call if something really bad happens ( like physical or mental abuse).


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